Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Sorry to leave you hanging...

I realized that I'd not posted anything real after asking for prayer.

Those of you who prayed for me, thank you. Emotionally I wasn't in a good place. Soemthing was said during a "heated discussion" that had never been said in the 11 years we've been together. It hurt me deeply.

Things are getting better in that area. Not great, but better.

We're struggling with a few other things right now, too. The majority of these has to do with my health. I'm only 30, but I feel like I'm 80. That may sound like the majority of you, but since I was in a car wreck about 4-1/2 years ago, I've not felt like me. My thoughts are very scattered.

Sometimes, it's almost unbearable to live with.

I go see a new Dr tomorrow morning at 7:30 (EST). If you're up then, would you whisper a little prayer for me. This will be the third new doctor in the last 2 years.

The first doctor got the boot when she was only dealing with one problem at a time. Me, I have multiple problems and she just wasn't paying attention or listening to what I was telling her. The second doc didn't get the boot. She actually listened to what I was saying and diagnosed appropriately, but she was leaving the week after I saw her to work at another facility. (insert boo's and sniffles right here) The third is the recommendation of the second doc. I feel ok about that.

I had undergone some testing last year. They were trying to figure out what's wrong with my "girlie guts" (those are C's words, btw). They found fibroids and ovarian cysts, but wouldn't rule out endometriosis, but wouldn't pursue it any further. Grrrrrrrrr.

They also did a sleep study. That determined that I have RLS (restless leg). I could've told them that. I tried Requip, since it was the "hot" new drug for RLS. Only it didn't work. It just made me sick. Like driving down a straight stretch of road and getting motion sick. Forget about taking a country road anywhere. Even the interstate was awful! Doc #1 "just couldn't believe that anyone was allergic to that drug. Nobody else has told me about that." - well, let me tell you a little something, sister - I'M NOT LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE!! THAT'S WHY WE'RE CALLED INDIVIDUALS!!! And nothing else was ever recommended to be taken to manage the RLS.

Anyway, the body pain is manageable. Not great, but manageable. The other pain is not the worst it has ever been. I'm still not sleeping well. Which could be attributed to the fact that my sleep cycle has been interrupted by this burly guy who likes to sleep cockeyed in the bed and kicks and flops and wants to sleep where I'm trying to lay. I got used to having the "big bed" to me, myself, and I. It's a little crowded with just us in there. You add C, and you've got a whole other ballgame. You'd think sleeping in a King size bed we'd have plenty of room. NO! (insert a little "teenage" eye-rolling) Arms and legs are everywhere - and it's just the 2 of us.

Just pray for us. Things are a little tight financially (C's pay schedule went crazy when he got put on The Plant's payroll, but it's getting better). Things are a little crazy emotionally. Things are a lot irritating with my health (I know that's not good grammar, but humor me).

But there's a song that I sing with my group. The chorus says, "It's been a long journey, but I have been blessed. Walking with Jesus, I have no regrets. He is so good to me, I must confess. The way has been long, but I'm blessed!"

"I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth. My sould shall make its boast in the Lord; the humble shall hear of it and be glad. Oh, magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name together. I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. They looked to Him and were radiant, and their faces were not ashamed. This poor man cried our, and the Lord heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encamps all around those who hear Him, and delivers them. Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who trusts in Him!" Psalm 34: 1-8 (NKJV)